Monday, November 29, 2004

Away message # 1

This is one of my away messages on AIM. I thought some of you might get a laugh out of it. I have a few others I'll post at some point.

"Little Golden Books That Never Made It"

1. You Are Different and That's Bad
2. The Boy Who Died From Eating All His Vegetables
3. Dad's New Wife Robert
4. Fun four-letter Words to Know and Share
5. The Kids' Guide to Hitchhiking
6. Kathy Was So Bad Her Mom Stopped Loving Her
7. Curious George and the High-Voltage Fence
8. Some Kittens Can Fly
9. Grandpa Gets a Casket
10. The Magic World Inside the Abandoned Refrigerator
11. Garfield Gets Feline Leukemia
12. The Pop-Up Book of Human Anatomy
13. Strangers Have the Best Candy
14. Things Rich Kids Have, But You Never Will
15. Pop! Goes The Hamster...And Other Great Microwave Games
16. Why Can't Mr. Fork and Ms. Electrical Outlet Be Friends?
17. Daddy Drinks Because You Cry

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Papi Long Shlong

... guess that's my porn name if I were to have one according to Chuck ;)

Had a great weekend with Chuck and a wonderful Thanksgiving with my family. I hope all of you did as well.

I went down Thanksgiving day and spent it with my mom, sister, her kids and my step dad. Played some Halo 2 on the xbox with them, talked, sat around the table and ate. Very cool time considering everything in my mom's house was pretty much packed up and ready for her move on Tuesday. They sold their house and are moving this coming week so we ate off of paper plates with plastic forks, etc. But it didn't seem like anything was different really.

As this was my first Thanksgiving with Chuck I thought it might be better to separate and make both of our families happy. While I wasn't with him for the actual meal I did meet him after I was done at my mom's. And we spent all the past 4 days together. He said he was going take me some place special for a short drive when I called him from my mom's which made my family kind of curious as to where we might go.

Well he ended up taking me to Philadelphia. We had an unbelievable time there. I had never really been there before so I was happy to go. We took a carriage tour of the city, covered ourselves with blankets and had the lady tell us about the historic sites we went by. It would have been very romantic had we not picked the carriage that also had a old guy tag along up front that was in training. The main lady operating it was great and if it was only her I probably would have done more in that carriage. But we held hands and enjoyed the ride still. I'm sure Chuck wanted more and I kinda feel bad because I'm not always comfortable in those situations.

We went out that night to 2 gay bars/clubs in Philly. One was called Woody's. I actually really liked this place even if it was for country line dancing. Hell I don't dance anyways so that made things even more entertaining for me. I had this thug boy wink at me and give me a huge smile as I walked by him there at this bar. I didn't tell Chuck then what happened but I did end up telling him later about it. I didn't want any scene in case he got jealous about that. After that point whenever we were in that area I tried to not look in that direction, because I didn't want the boy to think I was flirting back. I'm very happy with whom I'm with and I didn't want 'drama'.

After Woody's we went to the Bike Stop which is a leather bar there. I really liked this little bar too. Philly seems to be less "seedy" then what I'm used to in DC and Balt. While I don't like the thought of moving in any city, if I had enough money I think I wouldn't mind getting away to Philly every now and then.

There was something sorta big that happened last night, but I think for the sake of keeping this blog a little personal and not hurting others I'll just say that I went out last night to Central and some leather club in Baltimore. While I was enjoying Central for the most part when we went to the leather bar I got uncomfortable. Nasty shit was going on under the "boardwalk" they have there.. and 3 guys pinched my ass and looked at me like I'm some piece of meat. While most guys might enjoy this... and I admit I get flattered to a point... I don't like being treated like I'm meat either. When someone looks your body up and down and licks his lips at you and sees you are with another guy I think that is a total turn off. He has no respect for my relationship and must be a whore.

Ok, so maybe that word is harsh. But deep down, don't you think there is some truth to it?

There was more to this story, but again I'll remember this night without writing it down and it's something I'd rather not say to save grace (so to speak) and keep a good friend from getting upset with me.

Friday, November 19, 2004

Time to say goodbye...


I actually have hit a rut in knowing what to say on this blog right now. Work has been a roller coaster, one day our system is down so we get to go home... another day it's up and so we have a pile from the day we couldn't do anything... then the next it's down again.

I'm telling you, there are times where I wish I could just run away to an empty field with tall green grass and waterfalls near by and play a piano. I have this post card someone sent me years ago, and to this day it is one of my favorite pictures and places to imagine being at with total happiness. Just nature and music.

Well I just got out of the shower, I'm all clean and ready for bed. Just thought I'd let everyone know that I'm doing ok and that I'm still around. Now if someone could put me in my bosses position I'll be a much happier person at work too ;)

I want to thank you all for the comments you left on my last blog. It gives me a lot to think about, and actually one of you really hit the nail on the subject matter and that I thought was spooky! (but again, insightful)

Anyways, one of my friends Chris (I know way to many Chris's) sent me this link, while I didn't find it all that funny, it was entertaining and had funny moments. And some of you might really be entertained by it much more then even I was, lol

Until next time, peace, love.. etc.. ;)

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

I'm not dead

Hey gang,

A lot of nothing I want to do has been going on. Been busy with work and free time isn't usually free around a computer lately. Half the time I'm logged into AIM, but I'm actually busy working on work.

I just thought I would write up a blog to let you know everything is going ok, and I haven't forgotten.

Chuck and I are doing pretty well. We have some things that concern me, but I guess every couple has those. I think the only thing that comes to mind all the time with him is how much I just wish I could hold him in my arms. It gets really hard sometimes only seeing him once in a while. Part of me wonders what he is doing, another part starts getting insecure feelings when I'm away from him.

I also have this "on again off again" feeling towards him doing "something he does" (we'll call it that). It seems like (even though he says it isn't) it is a huge part of who he is. And if I tell him I don't like it I might just push his "limit" button and he'll leave. There is a part of me that doesn't see much harm in this thing, and I think nobody is perfect. Then there is another part of me that gets bothered sometimes by it (like the frequency). Maybe I'm being to picky, maybe I need a good therapy session on this. I feel like the past few weeks we have put each other through an fair amount of stress (along with a hell of a lot of happiness as well). I have been asking him to change his life styles, and I know that isn't right. Shouldn't he be who he wants to be? And I think I myself have to high of an expectation for any guy to hold. Somehow we both have to compromise.

Thursday, November 04, 2004


Today (and I've only been up for a few hours) has been hysterical. First my friend Chris sends me this picture...

Then I hear one of my coworkers talking to an employee on the phone. What was a simple solution and answer, my coworker just didn't think about her responce and said "You just need to talk to the CEO about that one." I was thinking, O-oh, someone is gonna get fired. No one should boost a simple question up to that level. So I got a good laugh about that.

Then my other coworker that sits in the cube behind me comes to my cube and says "Oh my god Billy, did you smell that guy?"

"Which guy?"

"The one that sits in the cube across from mine. He's got the worst BO I've ever smelled."

"Nope, I don't smell anything."

"Wow, I'm surprised you don't, Walk by his cube, you'll smell it"

"Ok", and I get up and take a quick pretend stroll to the printer we share. "OMG, that was nasty!"

"I know, I about used up my can of Lysol here. I'm gonna run out and get another at the Food Lion."

Sure enough, 10 minutes later she is back with a new can of Lysol, and spraying it like you wouldn't believe. Even had the nerve that when the guy got up, she sprayed his chair, desk, and walls in his cube. I hear the noise of the spray can every few minutes *SPPP SPPPP* and bust out laughing each time. Today is gonna be a good day.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004


Guess that lady singing her folk music should have sang louder (from the voting post I posted yesterday) *sigh*

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Rock the vote!

CuteYoBoy: There was one lady that brought in her guitar and started singing about Bush and Kerry
SDC: how annoying :-)
CuteYoBoy: it was (cuze she sucked at singing)... but after like 4 songs and hearing her songs lean towards Kerry, the Bush people started bo'ing
CuteYoBoy: and she was asked to stop
SDC: I'm surprised they didn't try and have her arrested as a terrorist
CuteYoBoy: haha
SDC: Only a traitor wouldn't support our Glorious Leader
SDC: or someone with a brain
CuteYoBoy: haha, She was getting people riled (sp) up with the songs, because the Bush people were bo'ing and the Kerry people were like yeah!!... which ofcourse caused tension in the crowd.

I really saw flash backs of like the LA riots starting at this High School. Some of those people looked ready to kill. Voting is some scarey shit! LOL

Monday, November 01, 2004

Fast little convo

CuteYoBoy: This could be a sign
cas7: of ...
CuteYoBoy: who knows.. a sign that somehow he's supposed to be a bigger part of your life... maybe even your husband
CuteYoBoy: I feel the force is strong with you 2. You shall become one with the empire
cas7: are we star wars 'n it
cas7: lol
CuteYoBoy: yup!
CuteYoBoy: You are princess Lay ya - or Lay me ... And he is Hansolo, or Hands solo.
cas7: ha ha
CuteYoBoy: Cum to the dark side (dark side = ass)
cas7: you watch too much pron
CuteYoBoy: There is a lot of porn references in Star Wars
cas7: porn
CuteYoBoy: LOL, I haven't lately. Chuck keeps me very satisfied, WOOF!
CuteYoBoy: When I was single, I don't think my hands were ever 'clean', lol