Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Ride with the tide

Ok, while work kicked my ass and I've taken more aspirin then I can count this week and I gotta say I'm feeling much better in knowing that I have the next 4 days off and I get to spend them with Chuck.

This past week was the end of the year "clean up" so to speak at work. Normally I just sit and do my lovely accounting which I am fine with. This week was filing old crap, moving all our 2004 files to our storage room, and boxing and moving our 2003 files offsite. Since I'm the only guy in my direct department and the youngest in the group guess what... I was the one who moved a lot of it. By day 1 I had hands covered in blood from paper cuts from the files. Day 2 I woke up with a back ache that would make child labor seem easy (which is when I started to medicate myself). By day 3, I was begging for a new body and my hands could barely move. So yeah, I'm very happy to get a period where I can forget about that and heal.

I feel bad tho, Chuck had mentioned that he wanted to get a picture of us both in front of our Christmas tree. The one he bought me as a gift. This shocked me since he's Jewish and he seemed to have this very negative feeling towards Christmas as a holiday. And it turns out of course Christmas is my favorite holiday. While I don't blame him at all for having negative thoughts about it (the rushing around, spending money, crowds, and the commercialism of it all) I was happy to see that he cared enough to go out and buy me a real tree for it. That really meant a lot.

Well back to the picture... we were supposed to get a picture in front if it, but I'm going up to his place this weekend instead. So either I'm gonna have to keep the tree up a little longer, or get pictures of the tree without him. I'm gonna try and keep it up and hope it doesn't start looking bad (brown and more needles on the floor then on the tree itself).

He also bought me a much needed gift, a new computer chair. Leather (which of course I have a fetish for) high back exec chair with built in massager. It's nice, and I'm breaking it in nicely.

I got a lot of nice gifts for the holiday. Nothing big, but who needs that? Besides the chair I'm very happy with the buttercream candle I got burning right now... YUMMY!!! I've been burning it every night and got so excited about it I went and bought a cake mix. LOL

Now I just gotta figure out something to get him for his birthday which is coming up in just a few days.

Sometimes I wish I could tap my retirement money and get him something really nice... like that Mercedes he wants so bad. But I know things are still young, and I'll have plenty of time to get him the things he wants. Right now though I don't have that kind of doe just sitting around and I guess I have to become more creative ;)

Well, New Years is on the way, and I wanted to wish you all a safe and happy one. I'm supposed to make a New Years resolution, but haven't decided what exactly it should be yet. I'm sure that'll come in the next post.

And on a side note, why do my ex's Dre and Kevin always call me on the same day. It never fails. I won't hear from them for days... then all of the sudden almost right after the other they call me. I don't mind talking to them at all, in fact I enjoy it. Some of you may think that is weird, but I try to remain friends with my ex's. I've learned a lot from them all and I wouldn't have dated them if I didn't like their company. There is no attraction to them though, once we broke up I lost that. Basically putting an end to that and focusing on a friendship instead. Plus I have no desire to be with anybody. With Chuck in my life he is what I have wanted for a long time. Sure, there may be things that I have been upset with, but you know what... no one is perfect. Myself, I'm far from it. I actually pity Chuck for putting up with my crap. I dish it out which is why both Kevin and Dre left me I'm sure. I mean there are other reasons why my ex's and I didn't work out, but I'm sure that was a factor too. Therapy is a good thing in my case and I kinda miss my doctor right now. He went away for 2 weeks for the holiday on a vacation. Next week I start back up again and I'm sure it'll be a much needed session ;)

Sunday, December 26, 2004

*beep* *beep* again!

Hi, hope you had a better Christmas then I did. Mine started out really good. I got to see my family and loved that, then I went to Chuck's family and loved that too... then Christmas day night (last night) is when things started getting out of control yet again.

Remember that post I did about IM's to phones? If not the summary of that post was that I was tired of people getting IM's to phones at ackward times (while dinner, sleeping, having sex, etc..).

Life seemed to settle down after that post and I didn't seem to really have issues with it until last night. *BEEP *BEEP* *BEEP* (and some really fucked up Atari sounding song starts from Chuck's phone). "Hey baby, you have a message" I tell him... that really didn't bother me. Hell I get messages every now and then....

*BEEP *BEEP* After he checks the 4 message in a row after a minute or two (ok this is starting to get old fast)... 1 or 2 messages and I can see it being fine, but it's annoying as fuck after that. I say if you want to chat that bad, pick up the damn phone and call the person.

Well things get worse... Chuck comes out and says "It's Lyel. He's straight. He's got a hot bod and when he used to come over I would try to get him fucked up to try to get some". *paraphrased*

Well, that's not something you should tell a person like me. You all know how jealous I am, if not then you haven't been paying attention to the posts :-P But damn did this not go over well with me at all. I mean here it's one thing that this person is chatting with my BF (I'm fine with him having friends), but another that Chuck keeps on responding back and he tells me he thinks the guy has a hot bod and wouldn't mind some.

I don't care if the dude is straight at this point. Hell I have even had my share of supposedly straight guys before, that doesn't mean shit!

Ok, so yeah... I'm still annoyed. I don't want to make a big deal about it now (since I already have), but it just didn't feel kosher in my book. I know I should try to not be so jealous, but it's hard when I seem to have a BF that seems to almost thrieve on telling me things to make me jealous. Why can't I find someone that could be more quiet about it? Fine, if you think someone is hot.. that's fine. I don't need to know it! And I don't see why someone would have to tell me that.
And to top it all off after we are in bed for the night guess what happens at 5am in the morning... *FUCKING BEEP *BEEP*... It's that fucking phone again. Another IM. This time though from one of my friends on Chuck's phone. I about lost it. Here I'm trying to sleep and that thing wakes me up, and it's even one of my friends! Boy are they gonna get a lecture out of me! They should know better.

Sorry I'm pissed off about this, but I needed to write and vent. I probably should have just kept it all to myself.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Porn requests for the holidays

LOL, no to toot my own horn (when I was more flexible....), but I got asked yet again to be in a porn video. I've been asked before to be in videos and on some pretty big websites including Badpuppy and . This guy I guess saw my pics on and wants me to be in his movies.

I was really flattered by this (I get that way everytime I get one of these requests). I'll only take the offer if I can get Chuck that ring and car that he wants ;) So you know that isn't happening since no one is willing to pay me that much! LOL. Although I had this old guy once saying he would buy me a car if I slept with him. I teased him and said it better be a Mercedes, and he said sure... but I didn't do it. Just couldn't see myself doing that.

I'm getting ready for Christmas, although I'm just really looking forward to the time off and food. I doubt I'll get much for it. No Ipod I'm sure ;) Chuck gave me my gifts already, I got this really nice leather computer chair with massage functions built in. I can spend like days without my ass falling asleep at the computer now. LOL And being the wonderful jew that he is, went out and bought me a Christmas gift to make it feel like he is still celebrating a part of my holidays into his life. That really touched my heart. One useful gift, and one gift that I'll never forget. What a stud I have! I love the gifts he gave me :) The best gift though is having him. I don't want shit if I have that.

Chris, one of my dear friends online is talking to me about Family Guy and has me cracking up...

Cm30: meg tells everyone at a restraunt that stewy is her crack baby so she'll get a bigger tip

Chuck calls me his crack baby sometimes, lol. I even wrote that on one of his gifts "To :Crack head From: Crack baby".

And another thing from Family Guy Chris said :

Cm30: Santa can't be asian, he dosen't drive his sled 20 miles under the speed limit with his blinker on!

And let me point out I'm not trying to be racists with that comment, I didn't say it, Family Guy did! :-P

Anyways, if you don't visit back before christmas here, then have a happy holiday and may you get what you wish for!

Friday, December 17, 2004

1 acre of the moon...

For $29.99! I'm not shitting you.

Own an acre or more of some of the hot spots on the moon (including the sea of Tranquility where we first landed).

Ok, enough of the cheesy sales pitch. I really don't know what to think of it. Part of me thinks, this might not be a bad investment. Another part of me thinks this is one of the weirdest/stupidest things you could waste your money on.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

That's CACA!

People who are around me long enough in real life might pick up on a few things.
1) While I have some of the characteristics of a Gemini and tend to be both like a conservative grown up at times and then also like a little 5 year old at others...
2) I have a good sense of guessing what someone is like by just talking to them for a minute or two (this doesn't always turn out to be this way, but chances are I can probably ask you maybe 5 questions and get a good grasp of a persons character (including how secure they are with themselves, if they really do have heart, and if they truly are happy). On this note I tend to get along more with the person that has gained more in life by working for what they have over the person that has been given because I think part of living is actually getting that feeling of being worried sometimes if you have food the next few days.... makes you appreciate life a lot more and what you do already posses.
3) They tend to pick up on the phrase "That's CACA!". Since very small I would stick pennies in my mouth (I'm guessing from a lack of iron or something according to what one doctor had told me later in life). And when I would stick those pennies in my mouth my mom would always say "You don't know where those pennies have been! Get that out of your mouth! THAT'S CACA!"... And of course being little me would think EWE! It's caca! And right away pull it out of my mouth. Course that didn't last long and within a few hours or so another one would be right up in there. Thinking back on it now, why would someone say "That's CACA!", and as a child my gut reaction was EWE! Get this out of my mouth! I mean have I eaten shit before? Maybe I was a little scat baby or something? All kidding aside, it worked and now it's a regular saying of mine. And people/posers (just kidding you guys) have picked up on it.

Well it's late and I should be in bed. I gave Chuck the first 3 seasons of the West Wing and now after he has been done with the first 2 seasons he has given me the DVD's to watch. I'm hooked, and I think I'll watch an episode now and then get to bed.

I wonder what my White House name would be... like you know the President is "Eagle", and my favorite person on the show CJ (Allison Janney) is known as "Flamingo"...

Sunday, December 12, 2004

100 Songs and going

Today I sent out the 100th song to Chuck. You may be wondering what am I talking about. Well several months ago when Chuck and I were getting very serious I wanted to show him just a small way that he was on my mind and that I cared and loved him. So I sent him a song to his e-mail address with lyrics typed in the e-mail of exactly what was sung. Unfortunately the first few songs I never kept track of, and he only started saving the songs after I also started keeping track of them.

Everyday after that when we were apart I tried to send him a song by e-mail with the lyrics again showing that he is on my mind and that I love him.

Some of these songs I admit aren't the typical "love" songs, but if you know their lyrics you'll know they have a meaning to our relationship somehow. Some are cheesy, some are sappy... some are fast, some are slow... Anyways, here is the list of the first 100 songs I have sent to Chuck with love:

(the numbers next to the songs is the order/song number in which I sent it to him)

Kimberly Locke - 8th World Wonder
Michelle Branch - It's you
Leanne Rimes - This Love
Foreigner - I don't want to live without you
Shania Twain - From this moment (6)
Etta James - At Last (7)
Vanessa Carlton - Pretty Baby (8)
Martina McBride - Valentine (9)
Clay Aiken - The Way (10)
Madonna - Cherish (11)
Sarah Brightman - All I ask of you (phantom 12)
Martina McBride - I love you (13)
Monica - Angel of Mine (14)
Shanice - Saving Forever for you (15)
Norah Jones - The Nearness of You (16)
Etta James - At Last (17)
The Bangles - Eternal Flame (18)
Bette Midler - The Rose (19)
Madonna - Crazy for you (20)
Kci and Jojo - Tell me it's Real (21)
98 Degrees - I do (Cherish you) (22)
Jessica Simpson - I wanna love you forever (23)
The Coors - Breathless (24)
UB40 - Can't help falling in love (25)
Donna Lewis - I love you always forever (26)
Belinda Carlisle - I get Weak (27)
All 4 one - I swear (28)
JOJO Feat. BOW WOW - Baby It's U (29)
Billie Myers - Kiss the Rain (30)
Janis Joplin - My Baby (31)
Celine Dion - If that's what it takes (32)
Janet Jackson - When I think of you (33)
Leann Rimes - I need you (34)
Mariah Carey - When I saw you (35)
Mary Chapin Carpenter - Passionate Kisses (36)
Savage Garden - I knew I loved you (37)
Sonny and Cher - I Got you Babe (38)
Atomic Kitten - The Tide is High (39)
Chingy - Right Thurr (40)
Gigi D'Agostino - Your Love (Elisir) (41)
Alison Krauss - When you say nothing at all (42)
Leann Rimes - How Do I Live (43)
Shania Twain - Forever and For Always (44)
Alanis Morissette - Everything (45)
Moulin Rouge - Your Song (46)
Dana Glover - It is you (I have Loved) (47)
Seal - Waiting for You (48)
When in Rome - The Promise (Tony Moran mix) (49)
The Cranberries - Dreams (50)
Moulin Rouge - Come what may (51)
Bonnie Raitt - You Got It (52)
The Divinyls - I Touch Myself (53)
Shania Twain - I'm Gonna Getcha Good (54)
Toy box - Superduper Man (55)
Toy box - Teddy Bear (56)
Crazytown - Butterfly (57)
Bette Midler - To Deserve You (58)
Bette Midler - Thats how love moves (59)
Christina Aguilera - I turn to you (60)
Jody Whatley - All the way to heaven (61)
KC and Jojo - All my Life (62)
Michael Bolton - Once in a Lifetime (63)
Josh Groban - When you say you love me (64)
Shanice - I love your Smile (65)
Rick Astley - Never Gonna Give you up (66)
Edwin McCain - I'll be (67)
Taylor Dayne - I'll Always Love you (68)
No Doubt - Underneath it All (69)
Belinda Carlisle - I get weak (REPEAT 70)
Roger - I want to be your man (71)
Peter Cetera - One Good Woman (72)
Bette Midler - In my life (73)
Brandy - Sittin' up in my room (74)
Jessica Simpson - Underneath (75)
Pretenders - I'll Stand by You (76)
Jim Brickman & Christina Aguilera - Destiny (77)
Jeff Healey Band - Angel Eyes (78)
Donna Summer - This Time I Know it's for Real (79)
Joe Cocker - You are so beauitful (80)
Peter Cetera - Glory of Love (81)
Belinda Carlisle - Mad About You (82)
Jim Brickman - Beautiful (83)
Jessica Simpson - For your Love (84)
Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels like home (85)
Chicago - You're the Inspiration (86)
Richard Marx - Now and Forever (87)
Bryan Adams - (everything I do) I do it for you (88)
Grease - You're the one that i want (89)
Paula Abdul - Rush Rush (90)
Escape Club - I'll be There (91)
UB40 - The Way you do the things you do (92)
Janet Jackson - Alright (93)
Amy Grant - Baby Baby (94)
Celine Dion - I'm your Angel (95)
Proclaimers - I'm Gonna Be (500 miles) (96)
SWV - Right Here Human Nature (97)
Gloria Esteban - I see your Snile (98)
Bette Midler - The Glory of Love (99)
Jim Brickman Collin Raye & Susan Ashton - The Gift (100)

While they are just small jesture I'm sure they mean something.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Happy Chanukah!

Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Chanukah. While I don't directly celebrate it myself (since I'm not jewish), I do however have a jewish BF that does.

I shall light a candle with him tonight and wear my NY Yankees kippah that he got me!

Now what about those 8 crazy nights? ;)

Friday, December 03, 2004

All are welcome

Well don't you wish that was true?

One of my friends Chris pointed this out to me and it doesn't make any sense at all! There is a new ad campaign being run by the United Church of Christ that shows all people are welcome into their church. Including gay people. Most networks have accepted to run the ad, but CBS & NBC. To me this doesn't make sense because here NBC is fine with airing Will & Grace which is focused around gay people, yet they can't air an ad which just shows 2 same sex people happily taking in worship at a church together.

Apparently Rev. Robert Chase agrees :

"We find it disturbing that the networks in question seem to have no problem exploiting gay persons through mindless comedies or titillating dramas, but when it comes to a church's loving welcome of committed gay couples, that's where they draw the line," says the Rev. Robert Chase, director of the UCC's communication ministry.

If you want to see the ad with some hunky bouncers click HERE

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Bird do do


I'm sick of birds. Last night when I got off work I went to my car (which is my normal spot to park) and noticed my car covered in bird shit. So much in fact that I couldn't get my windows clean without it smearing all over the place. Driving down the back roads around my job on my way home I thought "Shit, I can't drive down the highway like this... it's embarrassing!".

So I went in the direction to the closest gas station. When I pulled in the attendant laughed and said "I doubt our car wash will get all that shit off your car, you may have to do a double on it." I gave a pissed look and he said "Don't worry, I'll come out there and get it off for you". Next thing you know he comes from behind the counter with a sponge and brush and bucket in hand. He tells me to get in the car and get ready for the car wash after he is done. He scrubs my car like crazy and soaps it all up. Then after that he puts in the code into the machine for me and tells me to drive through so that I can now get the machine to wash it as well.

My car was looking like a million dollars after that...

This morning I purposely don't park there thinking if the birds come back I'll have the same problem over again. So I park where no trees are really around. I come out for my lunch and guess what... the crap is back, and even more this time! I swear I had more bird shit on my car then paint!

So I get out my towels and cleaners and start wiping it all off my car. About half an hour later it's lookin pretty good, although not as clean as after the car wash cause some areas just wouldn't stop from smearing the shit. No matter how much cleaning and toweling I did :(

I'm pissed. And when I leave work today, (I moved my car to the center of the lot), it better be clean! At least today when I went out for lunch, the whole row of cars was covered. So I felt a little relief knowing they weren't just targeting my gay ass car.

And I saw the pack of birds that did it too, they are lucky to be alive those bitches!